Maybe giving myself a few days to wallow in self pity after learning my firm was going to close was a bit optimistic. It has been 17 days, and I am still grieving. I'm not going to be following my boss, which is a real loss to me. And even though I have a really good job to go to, I'm still very, very depressed. (I'm not proud of it, but one day this week found me walking down Michigan Avenue on my lunch hour listening to the Wicked soundtrack on the iPod and crying like a 5 year old. Not pretty. Not pretty at all.)
I have been working hard at getting all of my boss' files in order, packed, indexed, and ready for him so that when he arrives at his new firm he'll be able to find what he needs. (He's been out of town for a week and won't be back until the last week of the month.)
The other two paralegals have pretty much checked out. One questioned why I would work so hard because she doesn't "give a f**k about this place". The other is angry and thinks that the partners decided to close just to spite her. Rarely, even in good times, did either of them have a good thing to say about anyone -- including me -- but now they are even more offensive.
Neither of them has been any help. They sit at their desks playing solitaire and waiting out the clock while I fill dumpster after dumpster with discardable files and pack box after box of files, label the boxes, and make an index of what is in each one. All this toting and lifting has not been good for my back, which is killing me.
It isn't as if I don't understand the urge to just sit at my desk and vegetate. It would certainly be easier on my back. But if I did check out, knowing that my boss thought enough of my work and tried his best to take me with him to his next firm, it would be telling him that his belief in me was misplaced. I may not get to continue working with him, but I still want his respect.
So I keep plugging away.
BUT WAIT! I MADE A MAJOR DECISION -- REMEMBER?
I have decided to knit this.
Eunny Jang's Print o' the Wave Shawl. Well, actually, I am going to knit a variation of it. (I'm going to knit the center panel in one piece and skip the grafting which is difficult in lace and I don't think looks all that great.) I have a whole bunch (1720 yards) of Knitpicks Alpaca Cloud in Midnight Heather, which I think will look elegant, and I have enough of it that I can make the shawl a little wider than the pattern. I have never knit lace that had a border knit separately, so this will be a new skill for me.
Myfanwe asked who I would knit it for. After all these years married to a knitter, she still doesn't get it.